| Intense...very very fucking intense |
[Jul. 11th, 2006|05:39 pm] |
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I called you brazen, called you whore right to your face. And watched you silently, and publicaly disgraced.
I didn't notice when you strengthend, like a vice, that you were trembling and burned beneath the ice.
Why don't you weep when I hurt you? Why dont you weep. When I cut you, you don't bleed, and the anger builds up inside.
You said a prayer, and I betrayed you with a kiss. I never realised that all had come to this.
So keep your dignity, don't throw it all to waste. Stronger feelings than you've ever learned to face.
Lost infidelity, we never said a word. So black and white you see, it's all the lies we've heard. In my mind nothing makes sense.
I'm nothing you can't have, cracked up to disgrace...that's all we've ever had. Only you...only you...only you can't be the one.
Your secret smile, so quaint, in memories fortold, laughing so viciously, your conscience has been sold.
In my face there is no more joy, I'm all that I should be. Cracked infidelity is all you are to me.
I hope you're feeling happy now. I see you feel no pain at all it seems. I wonder what you're doing now. I wonder if you think of me at all. Do you still play the same moves now? Or are those special moves for someone else? I hope you're feeling happy now. Just because you feel good it dosen't make you right, just because you feel good, I still want you here tonight. Does laughter still discover you? I see through all those smiles that look so right.Do you still have the same friends now? To smoke away your problems and your life. Do you even remember me? The one that made you laugh until I made you cry. I hope you're feeling happy now.
I cried on my blood day. there was nothing that I could hold on to. Just a line could have helped..remind me of you.I screamed till the blood dame. I was living in a cloud of hope. Lover's kiss, then they make a wish to the end. How they pretend. Cause everyday hurts a little more, and I'll do anything...yes anything, to belong. To be strong. To say there's nothing wrong.
I cried in the sunlight, would I fake all the times I loved you? Just a play in a game. I twisted with you. WITH YOU. I need to believe you, sacrificed all the lies we made up, how we kissed then we made our wish to the end. Time made me confide in you. So contrived were the words you sold me. Now nothing can swallow.
You have to see when things arent right, funny memories wont fill this need when things arent right. Safe mistakes I have made, get burnt up inside my head, fatal sees but never belieave the love that it saved wants death. Frineds die hard but lovers conceive the vibe that they hold will please. smothered by sexual needs, they fade as the days go by. Somethings don't go as you want them to. |
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| Itchy eyes and sticky thighs" |
[Jul. 6th, 2006|10:06 pm] |
Hidey ho.
Long time no post. So the nose is healing well. I took the plaster off early cause I was so embarassed and now it's just a little black and swallon. Niccy's car is only costing a grand to fix - i say only but considering she bought the thing for $1500, it's pretty pricey!
Big changes over my way. I have now officially changed degrees/ Kissing fucking design right off and am going to do something I am actually interested in. I was so depressed being surrounded by such assholes and feeling stupid when I know I'm not. anyway, I've transfered back into Arts, still at UNSW, majoring in Womens and Gender studies. So pumped up hey.
Been back partying a bit lately, lightly, but it's still good to be back on the scene. Things have changed so much within our crew. It's so funny. I remember going to raves every weekend w those kids and taking as many pills as we possibly could, how the times change and people grow up. Hard to be straight around them still, but they aren't such spaced out wankers as we all used to be.
My baby is beautiful as always. Things have been fantastic between us for the last year man but they have kind of reached an all new high point lately which is heaven. However, we had the first fight we have had in about a year tonight and it was fucking huge. Twisted, but hey when there is great passion there is great pain right? hahaha it's all good.
I hope everybody is well and keepin themselves out of trouble. Catch up w you all one day soon.
Enjoying being stuck in a wonderful place right now. |
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| Broken and bruised |
[Jun. 22nd, 2006|04:33 pm] |
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So I made it to 21. Pretty fucking wicked if you ask me. My party was the fucking best night of my life - no shit. I was absolutley trashed, without feeling ill, and without embarassing myself too much in front of my mum.
I had so many kisses it was unbelievable and my baby didn't mind one bit. I love my straight friends who throw themselves at me when they are drunk ahahahaha.
On saturday night bec took me out for the most beautiful dinner and we drank lots of cocktails and spent a whole pile of money we don't have hahaha
As far as presents go my baby spoilt me rotten. She bought me a new iPod since my last baby died on me and the most beautiful diamond ring. I am very lucky.
BUT my luck ran out last night. Driving to the pub, well Niccy was driving, I was in the front and Bec was in the back we had a massive accident. Came off the road, skidded accross three lanes of traffic going at 80km and smashed head first into a cement wall. We were fucking lucky to walk away. Bec is fine, Niccy hurt her neck a little bit and I fucked my nose and my back. But we are so soooo lucky considering the weather, the accident and the shit car we were in. Feeling pretty fragile today though, my face is KILLING me.
Love to all
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[May. 28th, 2006|12:45 pm] |
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Just got home. Had one hell of a crazy fuckin night last night. Mad music, wicked dancing, unreal cocktails, saucy suana and a hot as hell spa. Some of the finest ladies I have ever seen in my life. Being the DJ pays off I tell you. My fantasy has come true, thank you!! |
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[May. 21st, 2006|10:15 pm] |
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Finally got my hands on some vitamin green and myself a very good time. Kicked the girls ass in basketball yesterday, but my body is aching now. I know I have so much work to do yet I couldn't be fucked even attempting to do it. My laziness will be my demise.
My lip is swallon and Bec isn't here. I hate sleeping alone. |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|05:55 pm] |
| Your Five Factor Personality Profile | 
Extroversion:
You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have low conscientiousness.
Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.
Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.
Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.
Agreeableness:
You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2005|04:01 pm] |
Part Romantic Kisser |
For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet | Part Expert Kisser |
You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable |
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| Over, and Out |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|04:39 pm] |
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Good afternoon to all. Well, this here will be my last entry on live journal. I've kind of come to a stage where I have nothing I want to express for everyone to read, if that makes sense. Also, time is pretty hard to come by these days, and I find myself having to utilise every moment doing something a little more constructive!
So seeing as though it's my last one, it's gonna be a big one.
Being back at uni is so far pretty good. I'm just feeling the pressure already to do really well, especially considering that I almost didn't get to come back this semester (I failed a pre-req subject, but I had a meeting with the head of my program and she granted me exemption until my final year which is wicked cool. However, she is also my teacher for my biggest subject this semester, so I need to do well to show her I deserve to be there). Everyone is still as cool as ever, and it's kind of nice knowing you belong to such a big group, if that makes any sense.
Fuckin pumped up about this weekend though cause I know it's the perfect time to have a big one, before we get all of our assignments. Unfortunately it's going to be a very FAMILIAR weekend because of where we are going. My mate Marco is having his 21st and where did he decide to have it? At Chinese Laundry...that's right, that's like the fifth time I've been there in two months or something...disgusting, especially considering that I don't even like the place. Oh well, it will be another great oppurtunity to muck around w my mates and be silly in public HOORAAAYYY. So yes, that's my saturday night planed.
Mum has decided we need to all spend more time together as a family considering its only two months until my sister goes away. She's heading off travelling the world and living in Canada for a year, so that will be a big absence from our household. Anyway, mum has come up with a plan for "Friday Night Dinner"...pretty much we all go out for dinner ahhaa somewhere different chosen by each of us a different week. I can't wait hey!
That's about all I have to say!
So signing out for the final time,
Georgie xxxxx |
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|05:51 pm] |
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Why hello children *evil grin*
So, today was so incredibly GORGEOUS I was very tempted to excape the clutches of University and run off to the beach...damn the institution! Today was actually a pretty good first day back...long, and tiring but fun none the less. Got to spend the last hour sketching in the sun which was lovely. Not to mention that I got driven in AND driven home, ohhhh the wonderful benefits of your girlfriend attending the same uni :)
I'm home now, cracked open a beer and put on my uggies, now I can relax until tomorrow. I hope everyone is well!
xx |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2005|04:32 pm] |
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I have just returned from work with cash in my pocket...I love Saturday's! What I don't love is knowing that on Monday I must return to the hell fire of university life once more. Don't get me wrong, I love it, but I love doing nothing ever so much more. They just work me too damn hard fuck ya!
My head is empty and I have a blister on my little toe. |
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